Tuesday, January 17, 2012

mmmmm, cake!

So, I signed up to make a dessert for our spouse's group for their Dessert of the Month Club.  Sounds easy!  I decided early on that I was going to make my Butterfinger cake because it IS so easy.  I had everything bought for it...cake mix (check), disposable pans (check).  Now, if I could only remember to contact someone so they could remind me...again...what it was that I was supposed to do.  Make the dessert, then what???  Luckily, Lisa (the wonderful president of our group) knows me and knows that I need gentle reminders threats pushes in the right direction.  Not sure if it's the age or what but I can not remember a lot of...wait, where was I??


Got the email on Wednesday and told her that I had it under control.  The winner of the Dessert Basket would be chowing down by Friday.  Too bad my friends stomach bug and migraine did not get the memo.  Both boys were home from school with a bug and I had the migraine to end all headaches.  To top it all off, Chip was out of town.  Fine, it'll just have to wait.  So, wait it did until today.  Thought I'd share the recipe with you all just because.  



Butterfinger Cake
1 box Devil's Food Cake Mix
1 jar of caramel ice cream topping (12.25oz)
1 can sweetened condensed milk
1 container Cool-Whip (12oz)
1 regular size or 3 fun size Butterfinger bars

Make cake according to directions on box.  While the cake is in the last 5 minutes of baking, mix together caramel and sweetened condensed milk in a medium bowl, place to the side.  Take cake from oven and immediately poke holes all over the top (I find that a chopstick works well for this).  Slowly pour your caramel mix over the top of the 'holey' cake.  Let cool completely.  When cake has cooled completely, spread Cool-Whip over the top (most, if not all of the liquid should have been absorbed by the cake).  Take your Butterfinger(s) and crush.  Sprinkle broken bits over the top and serve.  Keep refrigerated. Enjoy!!



Saturday, January 14, 2012

The Flip Side

It's when 'YAY, YOU'RE HOME!!!!' turns into 'yay, you're home *sigh*'.  It is the time no one really talks about because it makes both of you look, well, ungrateful.  You both feel it, you just don't want to admit it.  


Now, there are some that will say it never happens to them, but they are the same ones who have the Spouse of the Year awards lined up all across their mantle.  Heck, they probably even have their own special display case with lights!  You know the ones, they burp rainbows and fart sunshine.






Well, this is not about them.  It's about me the rest of us imperfect souls.


It's been about four days since my friend's husband came home.  In respect for their privacy I haven't called, texted (is that a word?) or dropped in unannounced, but I know it's about that time.  The time for me to ask her "So, how's it going?"  To which she will sigh, roll her eyes and say under her breath "He is driving me CRAZY!"  Followed by a HOLY CRAP.  It's this time of the post-deployment that would make even the most virtuous of women drink and curse.  


You get desperate.  'Yes, it did too take me 30 minutes to poop'  'Um, yeah, I gotta go to the commissary.  I know that I just went an hour ago, but I forgot something, anything' 'Kids, Daddy wants to play with you!' 'I bet you should go in to the office, I bet they are DYING to see you'


You've been in survival mode for months and now there is a practically new person that has been dropped onto the island and you have no clue what to do with him.  You really want to just say 'the tribe has spoken.  You've got to get on up out of here' but you know you can't.  


So what do you do?  You may have a bottle glass of wine and tell yourself over & over that you missed him at some point.  You remember how hard it was when that extra set of hands was not there.  You suck it up once again, put on your big girl panties and DEAL.  It's not easy, no one ever said it would be.  You just didn't think that it would be this hard either.  You try not to put your pillow over his head when he sleeps (but that sure stops that snoring that you lived without for months).  You think happy thoughts and wish that you were the wife that burps rainbows and farts sunshine.  


He's home, he's safe.  You count your blessings.  You are NORMAL.  There's still the point at the end of every post-deployment honeymoon that you find yourself asking


"Can't you find some TDY to go on???"

Friday, January 13, 2012

Whew! You're Home!

While the rest of the world Alabama was preparing for a certain football game, I was helping a neighbor welcome her husband home from Afghanistan.  The Air Force members come back from deployment with little fanfare, which is sad.  They usually arrive at their home airport alone or with one or two other Airmen.  No hero's welcome or TV news reporters.  Just their eager families waiting to catch that first glimpse.
We see him!!

She had called me the day before to ask if I would come to the airport to take pictures of the homecoming.  She also swore me to secrecy because they wanted their privacy as a family to reconnect.  Of course, I agreed, grabbed my camera and headed to the airport.  What awaited me was a bunch of emotions that resulted in me shaking and crying so bad that a couple of pictures were blurry.  Every time we meet someone coming home from a long deployment, it takes me back to each and every deployment that I have had to face in my 14 years of being 'the one left behind'.

Chip's first time of being away from his family was a short (ha!) tour to Osan Air Base, South Korea.  We had just had our first child and *poof* he was gone.  Hunter was almost 4 months old when he left.  When Chip returned home a year later, he found that the chubby little baby who didn't sleep much had turned into a toddling powerhouse who went on and on and on like the Energizer Bunny.  He also came home to a wife who had realized in his absence that she could survive just fine on her own.

Little did we know at the time that that was the first of many deployments.  Eight months after he returned, September 11, 2001 changed our lives forever.  He deployed.  He was called in about 9 in the morning and was on a plane by 5 that evening.  I was three months into a difficult pregnancy (Sarah), Hunter had just turned two.  By the time 2009 rolled around, we calculated that Chip had been deployed 3-6 months out of every year since 2003.  Andrew, our youngest, was born in 2005.  He was the result of a homecoming from Afghanistan ;)

As I was standing at the airport in Montgomery, Alabama with my friend, I was thinking about all of those times.  How many times had I stood at an airport waiting for my airman to get off of a plane?  What emotions ran through me during those times?  Relief was number one.  Relief that he had made it home safely.  Relief that I no longer had to do everything on my own.  Relief that I had relief!  Fear was second.  Would I still know this person who had been gone so long?  Would he still know me?  The kids?  Could we live together again??

After so many deployments, it doesn't bother me so much to do everything on my own when he is gone.  I've learned a lot about myself (and others).  You learn to pull up those big girl panties and rock on!  You get pissed, without really meaning to, when you hear someone say 'my husband had to take a business trip to Atlanta and he is going to be gone THREE WHOLE DAYS!!'.  You bite your tongue, suck it up and muddle through no matter what.  You learn that you can take care of three kids under the age of 6 while sick, tired and worried for months on end.  You learn who your friends are and who you can rely on...and most of the time, the only person that you could rely on was yourself.  You can change a tire, fix a leaky toilet, soothe a sick baby and deal with a HUGEmongous rattlesnake...sometimes all at the same time!

He's Home!
As I watched this precious family reunite, I thought about all of that.  Watching the kids jump on top of their dad and all of the smiling faces makes all of the crappy days that brought you to this point just fade. It was hard, but it is over...for now...

Welcome Home Brad!!